Getting really tired

Just having - for some people - my "usual bitchy tiemz".

I don't want to write any journals to my dA about my own personal problems anymore. No one gives a damn about them either way. No one could help, no one would care. They're all just "SHADDUP BITCH AND KEEP DRAWINGZ NAOWZ!!!" like I was some sort of a robot who has to obey to every commands or else I'd be entitled as a "useless whiny creature". Not like I actually had a much better purpose anyway. I have never been treated as an other human being.

Even my family can't notice that something really isn't right. Bashing and saying very painful words sure is a much better way to pass time for them. It doesn't matter. They're going to notice it soon. But that time it's going to be already too late.

Quick entry

Sorry for spamming You with so many blog entries. I just wanted to tell that I might not be up for a short while (about 2 weeks - it depends on some things around here). I'll keep the drawing up by that time. Hopefully The Narrow Border between Light and Dark is going to be ready soon.

Good-bye till then.

Happy - late - Easter

Happy Late Easter!

However poorly due the lack of inspiration and time I couldn't make any holiday-related drawings, so sorry for that. ^^; Luckily I could finish at least my Easter present in time. Thank goodness my target liked it. :) The present I got from my secret Easter Bunny was so damn cute~ I'm going to put it's preview image here. Thank you so-so much again, Kate-Yoru!

Other things

I've continued drawing my doujinshi again.Since The Narrow Border between Light and Dark is shorter, I might consider finishing it first, because it's drawing purpose is much more important to me than You can imagine. ;3

I have to practice drawing backgrounds a lot more again. ;~; I've become even worse with them. Oh, well. *running back to draw*

Just some near future plans

I've decided to finish everything I've promised before I'm going. I can't tell much yet.

Some slow progresses

Man, I'm really damn slow. =___=" The picture I would like to draw for tomorrow is not even half-done. Myeah, You can freely bash me for complaining instead of drawing. But I hardly doubt that You wouldn't take an itty-bitty break after hours of drawing, inking and colouring. Besides I'm making a big and very detailed picture with many characters on it, so You really shouldn't judge me. My personal life is very complicated at the moment along with the depression which is far not over yet. It's showing it's symptoms especially when I'm frustrated due the deadlines and when people ask things from me I can't do. But come on: who wouldn't?

Lenalee Lee
*takes deep breath* Okay, complaining is over. I feel a tiny bit better. So as the title says: I'm going to share some progress pictures with you about the drawing I'm making.

On the first pic You can see some details of Lenalee. This angle sure was troublesome to sketch. However the inking went a lot faster than I thought. The only thing which is giving me nightmares by inking is: the arms. The angle never gets the same as on the sketch. =___=" Oh, well. I've got to experiment more.

Lulubell
On the second pic You can see some details from the background: more specially Lulubell as the Evil Queen. Her human eye-colour was never revealed, so I used her Noah eyes for the more threatening look. The green on her dress symbolises Jealousy (I bet You've already heard the saying "Green-eyed Monster" before). The purple on the robe signifies Magic, since the Evil Queen is a witch. I couldn't let the poisoned apple off of the pic, so I decided to put it in her hand, since our Snow White is currently surrounded by the seven dwarfs.

The background won't be so naked of course. I just would like complete the other important background character: the Prince (Allen) first. Phew, that's gonna be though. Oh, well. Enough whining. I hope You'll like them. Please, root for me to be able to finish this pic for tomorrow.

A busy week has just started

First of all I'm sorry for not writing recently. I've had quite a lot of stuffs to ponder about and my personal problems (love and family) didn't help with it either. It's damn good to be in love and having a family, but sometimes they can give a lot of headaches. Especially when you're kind of sick. I think my body is getting used to energy drinks. I'm still damn sleepy all the time and my mood has become a lot more edgier than before. But the problem is maybe with me. I can't tell. Oh, well.

I've got Dissidia 012 Duodecim's OST last week. Man, that album is damn addictive, believe me. ಠ_ಠ On Sunday I've finally found BlackRock Shooter's OST, too. Sis asked me to get it, because when we attended to MondoCon last October there was a cosplayer among the competition participants who dressed up as BRS (Beus Balázs - or Balázs Beus as we use the names in Hungary). She was damn amazing. Sis loved the music she used at the stage too, so she asked me to get it. Due my bad memory I don't remember the track's tune at all, so I have to wait for sis to pick it which one it was.

As the title says: a very busy week has just started. Especially since this week there are 2 dates that are precious to me and I'm making at least 3 drawings for them. Not to mention: I would like to continue my doujinshi as well. 012's music is damn inspiring. I hope I won't get into a slump (or artistic dump) this week. It would be the end of me. :"D

So what exactly am I blabbering about: there's one group at deviantArt with the name Secret-Angels. It's a Hungarian gift-giver group. When there's a holiday coming up - like Easter this time), all the members of the group who want to attend have to write a journal entry what kind of art would they like to get from their Secret Santa, Secret Easter Bunny, etc. They send the journal's link to the group in a note. The group admins by using a program create random pairs who have to complete at least one request of their pair's wishlist which they have to draw before the holiday. The admins send every member of the group a Note of who their pair is going to be. When the holiday comes, they have to upload their gift to their account and send the link to their pair in a Note saying "I was your Secret Santa/Easter Bunny." It's quite fun to do, because you never know with whom you're going to be paired up and you can't talk about your pair to anyone to keep the surprise of it. So... the first art I have to complete at any cost this week is my pair's gift. And as you could guess the date: for Easter, so this Sunday. The other date is 21 April. :D

Oh, my. I'm blabbering too much again. *runs off to draw* Bye-bye till then.

New Ideas

Phew, I've survived an other troublesome weekend. x____x Oh my. I hate fights and headache. At least - somehow - the mood to draw didn't leave me.
I made some random doodles for Kanda in Wonderland about 2 weeks ago on which I drew Lavi in a short dress as a punishment. Man, I somehow felt bad for him. x"D But just a bit. Kanda is usually the main victim of cross-dressing due his beauty. *chuckles*

So I really got into making some D.Gray-man characters into fairy-tales characters. Since Kanda already got his "dress" role, I was thinking about whom should I dress up as Snow White (白雪姫), so came Lenalee into the picture.

Yesterday I could sketch and finish the first picture of her dressed up as Snow White, holding a white dove on her finger. You can see the ready image I uploaded to my Pixiv account yesterday below.

Later on I really want to draw her surrounded by the seven dwarfs. x"D Some roles I think You can guess already. X"D I was thinking of Marie being the court's hunter. The cause is simple: despite his built he really is like a mellow teddy-bear on the inside and I couldn't think of him wanting to take an innocent life. Which goes for the Evil Queen: I thought about Lulubell taking her role. She's a fine adult woman, who seemingly is very sensitive about her looks. The Prince would be obviously Allen, since among hetero D.Gray-man pairings AllenxLenalee is one of my top favourites.

Oh, my. I can't wait to finish the ultimate Snow White - D.Gray-man cross-over illustration. :3 I already got the idea for a Cinderella - D.Gray-man cross-over chibi, too. x"D I hope You'll like it.

Anyway: back to drawing♥

Informations

Just thought about sharing some basic informations about the doujinshi in progress. Here we go:

* D. Gray-man *

Kanda in Wonderland

  • Title: Kanda in Wonderland
  • Fandom: D.Gray-man (KandaxEveryone)
  • Type: Doujinshi, Fanbook
  • Genre: Gag
  • Language: Hungarian and English
  • Rate: 12+
  • State: 8%
  • Author: Celes
  • Circle: Dead-Rose-Gardener

Birth of Bondomu

  • Title: Birth of Bondomu
  • Fandom: D.Gray-man (Jasdevi)
  • Type: Doujinshi, Fanbook
  • Genre: Serious (drama, angst), Family
  • Language: Hungarian and English
  • Rate: 12+
  • State: 0%
  • Author: Celes
  • Circle: Dead-Rose-Gardener


 Ambrosia I.

  • Title: Ambrosia vol. 1.
  • Fandom: D.Gray-man (KandaxEveryone)
  • Type: Doujinshi, Fanbook
  • Genre: Gag, Serious (drama, angst), Fluff, Shounen-ai, Alternate Universe
  • Language: Hungarian and English
  • Rate: 14+
  • State: 1%
  • Author: Celes
  • Circle: Dead-Rose-Gardener

The Weight of the Cross

  • Title: The Weight of the Cross
  • Fandom: D.Gray-man (OCxOC)
  • Type: Doujinshi, Fanbook
  • Genre: Serious (drama, angst), Fluff, Shoujo-ai
  • Language: Hungarian and English
  • Rate: 12+
  • State: 0%
  • Author: Celes
  • Circle: Dead-Rose-Gardener

The Narrow Border between Light and Dark

  • Title: The Narrow Border between Light and Dark
  • Fandom: D.Gray-man (CrossxTyki)
  • Type: Doujinshi
  • Genre: Shounen-ai, General
  • Language: Hungarian and English
  • Rate: 12+
  • State: 5%
  • Author: Celes
  • Circle: Dead-Rose-Gardener


* Bishoujo Senshi Sailor Moon *

The Path We Chose

  • Title: The Path We Chose
  • Fandom: Sailor Moon (HarukaxMichiru)
  • Type: Doujinshi
  • Genre: Serious (drama, angst), Fluff, Shoujo-ai, General
  • Language: Hungarian and English
  • Rate: 12+
  • State: 0%
  • Author: Celes
  • Circle: Dead-Rose-Gardener

* Fairy-tales *

H. C. Andersen's

- The Little Mermaid

  • Title: The Little Mermaid
  • Fandom:The Little Mermaid
  • Type: Doujinshi, Fanbook
  • Genre: General fairy-tale adaptation
  • Language: Hungarian and English
  • Rate: 5+
  • State: 0%
  • Author: Celes
  • Circle: Dead-Rose-Gardener

- Thumbelina

  • Title: Thumbelina
  • Fandom: Thumbelina
  • Type: Doujinshi, Fanbook
  • Genre: General fairy-tale adaptation
  • Language: Hungarian and English
  • Rate: 5+
  • State: 0%
  • Author: Celes
  • Circle: Dead-Rose-Gardener

- The Ugly Duckling

  • Title: The Ugly Duckling
  • Fandom: The Ugly Duckling
  • Type: Doujinshi, Fanbook
  • Genre: General fairy-tale adaptation
  • Language: Hungarian and English
  • Rate: 5+
  • State: 0%
  • Author: Celes
  • Circle: Dead-Rose-Gardener

- The Snow Queen

  • Title: The Snow Queen
  • Fandom: The Snow Queen
  • Type: Doujinshi, Fanbook
  • Genre: General fairy-tale adaptation
  • Language: Hungarian and English
  • Rate: 5+
  • State: 0%
  • Author: Celes
  • Circle: Dead-Rose-Gardener

- The Steadfast Tin Soldier

  • Title: The Steadfast Tin Soldier
  • Fandom: The Steadfast Tin Soldier
  • Type: Doujinshi, Fanbook
  • Genre: General fairy-tale adaptation
  • Language: Hungarian and English
  • Rate: 5+
  • State: 0%
  • Author: Celes
  • Circle: Dead-Rose-Gardener

Brothers Grimm's

- Cinderella

  • Title: Cinderella
  • Fandom: Cinderella
  • Type: Doujinshi, Fanbook
  • Genre: General fairy-tale adaptation
  • Language: Hungarian and English
  • Rate: 5+
  • State: 0%
  • Author: Celes
  • Circle: Dead-Rose-Gardener

- The Frog King

  • Title: The Frog King
  • Fandom: The Frog King
  • Type: Doujinshi, Fanbook
  • Genre: General fairy-tale adaptation
  • Language: Hungarian and English
  • Rate: 5+
  • State: 0%
  • Author: Celes
  • Circle: Dead-Rose-Gardener


- Sleeping Beauty

  • Title: Sleeping Beauty
  • Fandom: Sleeping beauty
  • Type: Doujinshi, Fanbook
  • Genre: General fairy-tale adaptation
  • Language: Hungarian and English
  • Rate: 5+
  • State: 0%
  • Author: Celes
  • Circle: Dead-Rose-Gardener


- Snow White

  • Title: Snow White
  • Fandom: Snow White
  • Type: Doujinshi, Fanbook
  • Genre: General fairy-tale adaptation
  • Language: Hungarian and English
  • Rate: 5+
  • State: 0%
  • Author: Celes
  • Circle: Dead-Rose-Gardener

That's for so far. No spoilers for You. : B

New header and sum' stuff

dA Journal by nagyvarym
dA Journal, a photo by nagyvarym on Flickr.
Phew, finally the header is done. It'll take some time to figure out how Blogger's layouts work, so the completely own CSS has to wait here for a while. ^^; At least my deviantArt's journal looks somewhat normal as You can see it above.

Man, being so hyper for so long sure can be tiring. X____X

And I can't stop listening to After Forever's Decipher album. Listen to it. Nao.

God, my Love sure can come up with beautiful designs. Especially if it's about costumes. Her OC, Lilith is simply beautiful.

There wasn't work today. By finishing the header graphic I sure forgot about time, so making the pancakes for lunch got a bit delayed.

Well stuff

Nothing special, really, just some casual happenings from my little uninteresting life.

* Saturday *

Since my mom nearly succeeded to break her leg on 1 April (yep, the date is weird, I know) sis, bro and me took the control of cleaning the whole house while mom was resting. Can you guess who got the cleaning duty of her room? But of course me. Thank goodness she was silent for the most of the time. (Note: she's the kind who is never satisfied with what and how are you doing.)

Her boyfriend was visiting us that weekend, too. He brought self-cooked Milanese macaroni. Heck, it's the tastiest macaroni I've ever eaten. I told sis and mom: "If he would learn to cook soba I'll let him to adopt me." Really: that guy is so damn cool. I wish he was my real father. We were talking a lot and telling stories in the afternoon. Man, my tears just kept on coming from laughing. So many weird and funny things happened to him... x"D

That day was fun, but tiring as hell. The end of it was kind of ruined, because mom told me that she told one of her co-workers that I didn't have a boyfriend = I was single. When she knows exactly I have someone I adore - even if that person is a girl. Oh, well. Enough whining of that day.

* Sunday *

I woke up earlier than anyone else in the family, of course. (Well, I went to bed earlier than them anyway, but heck: I don't need too much sleeping.) I started to sketch the newest pages of Kanda in Wonderland. At the beginning it sure went slowly.

The weather wasn't as pleasant as on Saturday. Hell with cold, I had enough of it in Winter, brr. Needless to say: my mood wasn't much brighter either. Mom and sis told me off. Just great. Oh, well. At least that day I didn't have much stuff to do. It was said that grandma would come to visit and meet mom's new boyfriend. Thank goodness she changed her mind. I didn't need her presence. At all. Mom was kind of hurt because of it though. Oh, well.

Her boyfriend came for lunch that day, too. He told us stories again. He and mom left today earlier.

I scanned the new doujinshi page a bit later and started inking it. Thanks to a bit of an energy booster (alias energy drink) it went a lot faster. I had to go to bed in time though, because I was starting working today.

* Monday *

This morning was the true hell, believe me. Like everything was against you: no one lets you sleep enough, no one lets you prepare to work, at the door you get stopped by a random stranger. Just really... .____."

By looking for the fuelling station I was kind of lost. Thank God and my boss I found it in time. I was kind of surprised by how the shop looked. Sure we came to clean up and order it in, but... seriously. That dirt what there was... We didn't know where to start. This day stood out of cleaning. The most critic parts were the windows. The worker guys made such a mess of them that we couldn't clean them properly after hours of work.

I met 3 new faces who are going to be my workmates: 2 girls and a guy. They all seem nice. We'll see how stuffs are going to turn out. Our boss is a cool guy, too. He somehow feels like he was my older brother or something. After today's program he dropped my workmate and me home. Cleaning sure was a nice exercise, so coming home on foot would be death. x____x

After arriving Maszat, my younger kitty kept on following me everywhere. Man, he missed me. And he sure kept on sniffing at all the weird foreign cleaning stuffs' smell on me.

Phew, even if I'm tired as hell, I still want to do something. Probably finishing all the left-overs of inking. Hehe, I'm such a slowpoke.


Title and length change

Early bird is early, meh. *been awaken for quite some time*

Since the title Forbidden Fruit (禁断の果実) is "slightly" overused, I changed it's title to Ambrosia (アムブロヂア). I also would like to extend it to more books, because the doujinshi's plot is based on a role-play and grabs only a tiny part of the actual storyline, which is... well, long, and the reader would be confused due the many flashbacks, and other things. So I rather decided on to make the whole story separated in more books.

Man, it's also April's Fools Day. I don't dare to visit deviantArt today. =_____= Last year's Team Edward, Team Jacob, Team Gaga and Team Seekers stupidities were more than enough, brrr. *got goosebumps* This can be funny for a 6 years old kid, but... for people way over 12? Please, give me a break. *facepalms*

Oh, well. At least I have more time today for drawing~♥ (Also: I can't wait to finally get a call from my Boss. :D)

First Entry

Wow, after some while I've finally managed to write my first entry at this site. Excuse me for my slowness. I'm very new to Blogger. x"D

Poorly I couldn't finish my own layout for this site yet, but it's in a steady and neat progress, so hopefully it's going to be done for the end of this week. :)

Doujinshi

According to my usual "speed" - if it even could be called that - drawing is going quite smoothly. I got a huge boost this week, thanks to Mellow Fang's and DINGO's doujinshi MIXCANDY (ミクス★キャンディ) got on Monday. Ladies, you're amazing. Keep up the good work. :D

Currently I'm mainly working on Kanda in Wonderland. Oh, boy. It's so much fun to draw. I love pretty dresses, and this sure got me into designing some, fufufu♥. I really would like to finish this and The Narrow Border between Light and Dark for summer to hold one copy of each in my hands and take them with me on my trip as a gift for a certain someone I adore♥.

Man, I can't wait to go to Finland again - even if it's still damn cold there. Oh, well. Only a few more months. *tries to bear with it*

Wow, it's already past midnight. Time sure loves to pass way too fast for my liking. I think that's all for so far.