Just having - for some people - my "usual bitchy tiemz".
I don't want to write any journals to my dA about my own personal problems anymore. No one gives a damn about them either way. No one could help, no one would care. They're all just "SHADDUP BITCH AND KEEP DRAWINGZ NAOWZ!!!" like I was some sort of a robot who has to obey to every commands or else I'd be entitled as a "useless whiny creature". Not like I actually had a much better purpose anyway. I have never been treated as an other human being.
Even my family can't notice that something really isn't right. Bashing and saying very painful words sure is a much better way to pass time for them. It doesn't matter. They're going to notice it soon. But that time it's going to be already too late.
2011. április 30. 14:36
what's wrong? D:
2011. május 1. 14:12
A lot of bad things have happened at once.
2011. május 3. 15:44
sorry to hear that, and sorry to get back to you so late. D: i sincerely hope it will get better and i'm confident it will in time. altough, your words still worry me.
i don't know how old you are or anything about you more from what i've read of your blog(and mostly i've just admire your art quite carefree^^'). but.. ah. don't know how to write this right, in english. it's gonna sound so weird, but i don't think you can ever really trust your family or freinds to understand you, or in this case notice that something isn't right. from experience, people are quite full of themselves,n quite often fail to understand that others have their own reality and worldview.
i think,if it is something you wanted them to pick up on, you should yourself break the news for them. in other words, invite them to your world right now. i can't be sure, but i think your family would want to support you - altough, since we all live in different worlds, probably not as you would want, or expect them to help.
i'll say it again, but i don't know you. and i don't know your family or have any idea of what these bad things that happened/is happening is all about. but i really hope you'll be ok and don't give up!